I'm just waiting for the right time to let it out I've been drawing shapes behind my eyes I'll play the sacrificial lamb You'll be the white knight Yelling out catch me if you can Catch me if you can I think that I finally understand Don't wanna think too much I'll just go to bed Don't wanna sleep I'll just think a bunch instead Swear to god I encourage this commotion It's a rush I don't think that I can stop I enjoy it way too much Burn the bridge or drive off it either way If you don't do it for yourself you know that nothing's gonna change Let it build Hold it in It's a struggle to contain All the things I wanna say But I'm just waiting for the right time to let it out I've been drawing shapes behind my eyes You'll be the place it all began I'll be the white lie Yelling out catch me if you can Catch me if you can I think that I finally understand I'm just a vessel for fate No controlling what I make I'll keep on pushing my luck 'til it puts me in the grave I've got my foot in the door I've got my voice in your brain So up until I get bored You know nothings gonna change It's alright Pull me out of the water again Bring me to life I'm doing fine for the day But then I struggle at night I get caught under the waves I don't even try to fight But you always throw me that line You know could do it if you want to It's all in the way you go about it So I'll try it out this year See if I can go without it So full of apprehension All my emotions clouded I feel the build in tension But I'm just waiting for the right time to let it out I've been drawing shapes behind my eyes I'll play the sacrificial lamb You'll be the white knight Yelling out catch me if you can Catch me if you can I think that I finally understand I'm just a vessel for fate No controlling what I make I'll keep on pushing my luck 'til it puts me in the grave I've got my foot in the door I've got my voice in your brain So up until I get bored You know nothings gonna change It's alright I'm just waiting for the right time to let it out I've been drawing shapes behind my eyes I'll play the sacrificial lamb You'll be the white knight Yelling out catch me if you can Catch me if you can I think that I finally understand I'm just waiting for the right time to let it out I've been drawing shapes behind my eyes You'll be the place it all began I'll be the white lie Yelling out catch me if you can Catch me if you can I think that I finally understand I'm just a vessel for fate No controlling what I make I'll keep on pushing my luck 'til it puts me in the grave I've got my foot in the door I've your voice in my brain This time I'm shooting for more I'm sick of staying the same It's alright

One cold winter knight It's just a flashback to one of the few things I remember right I always come back to the place it grew But if I lose my mind Can you teach me how to fake it Cause I'm seeing all the signs Out in public feeling naked I used to run But now I only crawl It's said and done Pull the trigger when it's time for me to go I don't know everything I just know what I know And it ain't nothing much No it's not that bad it just hurts a whole bunch No when I fall back I don't roll with the punch Man we'll keep going at it till somebody's won So enjoy the show it's a wild one And I think I'm allowed to be Just a little bit cynical I can't help it And truth be told I just don't care if its selfish I always stand Back off How typical And it's so nice to hear you tell me that None of this is gonna matter in the end I got so close Tryna keep it composed But really I don't think that I can deal with this again

Falling back Into the arms Of someone else 'Cause you need somebody to touch But I'm calling back 'Cause I don't care What it'll do to me I think I just need somebody here So I'm falling back Right into place Wouldn't it be nice If I could change I'm getting used to curling up On a block of ice And they all say You know it's gonna kill you someday And you know you're setting yourself up for disappointment You think you're getting yourself somewhere But it's all for your own enjoyment It's only gonna make it worse It's only gonna bring you pain But really I just want it more Every time I here him say It's gonna kill you someday It's gonna kill you someday It's gonna kill you someday (well so what, well so what) It's gonna kill you someday (well so what) But I don't think that matters at all And things could always get worse So I'm gonna keep my head down And run into it headfirst No I'm not like him at all We're just both addicted to work So I'm gonna keep my head down And keep pushing through 'til it bursts And I know I'm setting myself up to crash and burn It doesn't matter how you touch me And I don't care if you're concerned I'll keep coming back 'Cause I don't care What it'll do to me And I don't need nobody here Just let me push my rock Let me starve myself It doesn't hurt too mad It always comes out so well And they wish I'd stop But I know that won't help 'Cause this is what I want It doesn't matter If it's only gonna kill me Someday (And they all say) It's gonna kill you someday It's gonna kill you someday (well so what, well so what) It's gonna kill you someday It's gonna kill you someday It's gonna kill you someday It's gonna kill you someday (well so what, well so what) It's gonna kill you someday

I see your reflection in the mirror I feel your every move And those eyes staring back at me again Form a hole inside my heart It’s like daggers in my skin I feel their hands around my neck I feel their fingers pressing in I know this isn’t what they want but I feel my body start to give This is not how I thought that this would go But if there’s no fighting it I guess that I’ll just float You sent me a message It wasn’t through the phone Your sharpened eyes could do it all alone So I'll sit and watch you from behind the glass 'Cause the moment never seems to pass me by Tell me When you see me Does it scare you I’m not working on myself I wouldn’t dare to Make something better of myself It wouldn’t be fair to And I hate that I enjoy this Yes I brought it on myself I hope that you’re not disappointed I see your reflection in the mirror I feel your every move

My chest sinks in My heartbeat slows I feel your skin Against my own Unfocused eyes Dart blindly up Let you have the keys And tie me up He’s letting go He’s letting go He’s holding on And he’s letting go I’ll stop counting down If you say when And you’ll keep track But don’t forget That I’m not kind I’m not kind And she’ll say beautiful thing I need a usable man You know the time isn’t right But I’m always turning these hands You say he’s turning back time You know you’re so full of shit You always blink when you lie You’re always lying a bit But you’re not mine And I know that But when I walk inside My light always flashes So I’ll laugh until I cry And it feels good while it lasts But I know that I’m not kind I know that I’m not that good At holding things inside Now I’m the one whose skin is flushed To you it’s just a little crush I wish you didn’t make me feel so happy I could die And everything blows past me cause Everyone is in a rush But I ain’t going nowhere She said bottle up those feelings Keep ‘em secret You won’t need them in my couch And I don’t need to hear it baby Sex is really all this is about I’ve got you wrapped around my neck where everybody loves to see your hanging out And I don’t need to see it baby Put your fucking hand over my mouth

Don't ask too much of me I won't settle in too comfortably I'll keep running my mouth so insufferably About every single one of my dumb beliefs I won't ask too much of you Just to hold my hand and see me through 'Cause I can't do it by myself I don't wanna set the world on fire I just want it to burn I don't wanna set the world on fire I just want it to burn I don't wanna set the world on fire I just want it to burn I don't wanna set the world on fire I just want it to burn Don't ask too much of people They're evil little cowards and horrible creatures They don't know any better so they always hurt each other Then the guilt cuts deep so they sit alone and suffer Both my feet got stuck in the cement that they poured I wonder why they did it right outside of my front door Now the bloods cut off And I can't feel a thing So I'll wait right here till the doorbell rings So I can go back in To the same old porch that I've always known But every piece of furniture has turned into stone And now I'm all alone And it feels really weird And the wind keeps blowing When I look in the mirror I see a pile of bones Just waiting to disappear to some place called home I don't wanna set the world on fire I just want it to burn I don't wanna set the world on fire I just want it to burn I don't wanna set the world on fire I just want it to burn I don't wanna set the world on fire I just want it to burn We don't talk anymore And you don't breath And I don't feel like before You knew me Now I can't move Now I can't move I don't call anymore 'Cause I'm beneath The worth of my words And this disease Now I can't move Now I can't move

A vertical cut down the threads of the fabric I feel it get closer and cover my eyes And I know that it's something I do out of habit I'll look off the cliff but I don't want to die I'll walk past the old institutions I went to when I was convinced that the world's in my hand And I promise I'm sorry for all that you went through It's painful to think back but I'll do what I can You know We all miss you so much Is it selfish to think I could've helped it You said "If you need me to help just a text is enough" But I'll shelf it and We're all fragile and elfin "The greatest of pressure is what I excel in" and "If a human's immortal it just seeks an object to kill itself" with It's a lie but I'll carry that weight 'til I Drop off the face of the earth All these little old places have changed Know I'll fall once I feel the rotation And it's all just the same If we're living in hell But I can be who you blame if that in any way helps And I tried but there's no way of stopping myself 'til I die Then I'll drop all this weight in the well It's all fine If there's anything wrong I can't tell If cover my eyes I'm just scared of myself Felt the planets rotation right under my feet If I swallow my pride can I finally be free It repeats in my mind like a countdown from three This is nothing at all like how I thought it would be I don't wanna set the world on fire I just want it to burn And how could you act like you're setting my free If I swallow my pride can I finally be

Wrap me up in your warm hold Keep me upright when I'm too cold Let me lean on your goalposts You can push me away if I get too close When I lay down next to you And you don't look my way And my eyes stay set on the outline of your face I'll give you your space When I lay down next to you But If I inched a little closer would you Wrap me up in your warm hold Keep me upright when I'm too cold Let me lean on your goalposts You can push me away if I get too close When I stand right next to the fire I don't move I just watch As it takes what it desire But I'm not that ember I don't have what you require You can try to play pretend but I know you've never been a liar Don't try to be I wish I didn't feel it but I do when you lie with me And every time I notice it I try to cut your ties with me Laid down next to you Trying to think of my best excuse Could you Wrap me up in your Chokehold Help me lose all my Control I keep on moving my goalposts Let me eat my heart out before I'm too old When I lay down next to you And repeat the same mistakes Trying to think of my best excuse So I can keep myself awake Not a thing that I said to you is what I really wanna say Pretend I'm protecting you But I'm really just afraid

A couple days in the summer A couple hours in bed But I’m sick of watching movies Can I show you this instead And I know everybody wonders Just where the hell I want But I can’t promise nothing other than that I’ll tell you when So would you call me on the 15th And light a candle Burned my hand off What a friend for misery Laying face first On the front lawn Lift my head up Now the suns gone And I’ve been waiting here for so long I’ll leave as fast as I can You’ll run as slow as I walk It’s so nice to call you my friend You breathe as fast as I talk I read the message you sent I’m always in here just knock Cause it’s getting scary out there You know I’ve always been your rock And I’ve been waiting here for so long You said we’re all replaceable things But if that was true Then what’s there to do but Set fire to my wings And I’m burning up Too close to the sun

Let me hold you Let me bask in your warmth Shine your light all on my lonely skin Show me where my idea of me ends Show me where I begin Let me follow the sound of your voice Tell you all of my sins I thought I'd feel better when I Was under the lights But now I'm afraid Afraid I might fall and the look in their eyes Is colder than wind I learned to fear heights when I was a kid Then I fell from the hive Another few months then I'm shedding my skin Not much of a man but at least I'm alive so Let me hold you Let me bask in your warmth Shine your light all on my lonely skin Show me where my idea of me ends Show me where I begin Let me follow the sound of your voice Tell you all of my sins I thought I'd feel better when I Did everything that I wanted to do But everything's nothing And nothing is true So when it all crumbles it's funny see 'Cause the truth is a joke and it's always on my Grab onto my ankles and ground me 'Cause there's nothing here really holding me down There's a wall in my path There's a rot in my soul You know I've been so cold Just Let me hold you Let me bask in your warmth Shine your light all on my lonely skin Show me where my idea of me ends Show me where I begin Let me follow the sound of your voice Tell you all of my sins Is it Only 'Cause I'm moving around it too slowly That I latch on and let it control me Is it just 'cause I'm scared of the sound of it leaving my chest or the taste in my mouth Hold on 'Cause my whole worlds about to explode I tried coughing it up but it's stuck in my throat I'm so tired Let me drop all that's weighing me down Let me feel every breath Help me find a way out Thought I was waiting for the right time to let it out I was just holding it in I stopped biting my tongue but it stuck to my lips I was right on the edge You let go of my hips I'm not exploring the depths I'm just drowning in it Breath The essence back into my chest Tell me where I should go Show me what to do next I bottled it up and now All of its foul I stopped biting my tongue and now I can't stop running my mouth

It build and it dies And it raises and smooths Then I can't remember why I was worried at all But that's just what I do Fettered flight Hit the fan Then I'm shot to the floor of this And I'm tied down so tight to this illustrious heap All these books that I bought All these words that I speak And I can't remember why but that's just what I do I'm no sycophant You know that I really love you And I'll keep falling for forever 'Cause that's just what I do I'll keep holding it together I'll keep all of these birds in my room I'm not scared of the ground 'til its close to my face I'm not nervous at all I'm just deathly afraid That I'll keep falling for forever 'Cause that's just what I do I'll take the usual Lets keep standing in place You know you always make me feel beautiful Though I've fallen from grace Now I know the world tends to move without reason But I spent so long thinking it revolves around me My give and my take still feel so uneven And I'm staying here So you keep on walking I'll keep falling for forever 'Cause that's just what I do I'll keep holding it together I'll keep all of these birds in my room I'm not scared of the ground 'til its close to my face I'm not nervous at all No I'm ready to change But I've been falling for forever 'Cause that's just what I do I'll keep falling for forever 'Cause that's just what I do I'll keep holding it together I'll keep all of these birds in my room I'm not scared of the ground 'til its close to my face I'm not nervous at all I'm just deathly afraid That I'll keep falling for forever 'Cause that's just what I do

I have become Something other than what I expected I would I'm not good And I'm not kind But I'm not cruel and I try Just like I promised would And I'm not special Like I thought that I was I am not remarkable or outstanding I am just I am just learning I am growing each day into a beautiful, very large flower I'm just part of the bouquet And I am not alone here We are beautiful things Now I wanna tell you I love you but I'm waiting 'til spring When you tell me I'm good And I almost believe it Maybe you're just peeking into the future 'Cause I don't yet see it though I try But I don't think that I'm nice And I'm not special I am just learning I am growing each day into a beautiful, very large flower I'm just part of the bouquet And I am not alone here Forever in bloom We are all just growing each day Shrinking under the moon And there's not anything good There's not anything right We are all just standing, reaching up towards the light 'til we wither And we fall in the middle of the night When there's no one there to see us And there's no one that despite Our roots wrapped around each others In and ancient sort of seal I will push your leaves away You'll keep pulling my thorns near And I'll be scared 'Cause flowers only last a week or so in a vase if you take care of them well And now the empty sheets I used to roll inside are made up and filled with the smell Of something blooming and my wintertime is warm In a way that I've never felt And I know you'd say If I think it I should say it If I feel it I should do it either way But I'm not good And I'm not kind I am very, very selfish I keep it all to myself and I am swaying in the breeze Trying very hard to bend But I am very, very weak I am broken into pieces very, very easily When I said that I would change I didn't know what that meant I am a very young tree My base is spreading out below about as fast as it can But I am very, very slow And the ground has not end No direction I should go I always thought that I was free but I was really just alone And now Our roots wrap around each other getting twisted in a loop We are tangled We are knotted Pulling my thorns into you It doesn't matter where I hide It doesn't matter where I run And there's no point in being here if I'm not reaching for the sun 'Cause I am Feeling something new that I have never felt before And even if I'm terrified at least it's better than ignoring All this pestilence I hide And If I'm rotted to the core at least I gave it all a try At least I'm looking for the cure And if you wrap me in your branches to protect me from the cold For just a little bit of time Then I'm ok with letting go of all the rotten roots I clung to All the pain that I adored And every time I see the light I'm cutting off a little more 'Cause I am feeling some thing new that I have never felt before (This is nothing at all like I thought it would be)